THE SUMMER IS AMONGST US

I am looking forward to the summer due to the fact that I get Boyd back and what I mean by that is simply he has been to Morocco and back this year several times. He was part of the African Lion Humanitarian Civil Affairs Mission. He had a lot of experiences while he was there. I will post pictures soon. This summer he won't travel as much so we will spend time together which I love to do.

We really love to hang out with each other, he loves to go grocery shopping with me which allot of people can't figure out why he likes to do that. He just hangs around and let's me have at it. We are truly each others best friend. Don't get me wrong we have spats here and there but we love each other and respect each other as well. It takes allot of work in marriage and allot of giving and taking.

I think we tend to look at other people and think their marriage is perfect. I remember a time in life when I would think that just to find out that they were just as imperfect as anyone else. Realizing that struggles and life lessons are to be learned, even though some of us rather not learn the lessons (no thank you).

I love quotes and save them and this quote is one I like: “When we are unable to find tranquility within ourselves, it is useless to seek it elsewhere”.

This is something that hit me at one time in my life. We get so caught up in life and the world around us. On facebook in my status area I once said that my brain is a noisy place (no I don't hear voices) because the world around is so noisy and it is real easy to get caught up in it. We are anesthetized to things around us, things that are acceptable in society today. Standards have become low, it is hard for me to find a modest shirt anymore. It frustrates me that I have to buy a undershirt thingy

We are so connected with the media, Internet and television it is crazy the message we get continually (yes I am on a tangent). Lot of Anti-Family crap, it scares me to death. I feel for our future children because they need to be strong. My grandchildren and great grandchildren and so forth... Jeez no wonder I am up at night eh? No, I have no idea why I had this on my mind at this time It is something that has been buildig up in my noisy brain for quite some time. Maybe if anyone reads my blog, which who knows if anyone does, it may be for them or maybe it is for me to get it off my chest. One may never know . . .

BACK ONCE MORE

Once again I find myself struggling to keep our family blog going, mainly for the sake of following through on something and the fact that it is a journal type of process for my present and future posterity. Okay, this and the fact I can check off one of the things that may possible get my foot through the door to heaven, or at least a servant of some sort. I'll take that at this point. I have started doing my Genealogy. (another check)(getting a little closer) Well okay I turned on the computer linked up to Familylink and typed Boyd and my information in. This is allot better than a week ago. Thank you momma for your inspiring (guilt trip) words. I am committed to following though on this as well.

Two commitments in a row how will I survive?! I am fortunate for the material I am "blessed" to work with, we are a very interesting clan that started back in 1853 a great-great Grandpa by the name of James McNeil and continues today. Then there is my fathers side of the story that I have yet to tap into.

Of course I am always focusing on the present and that gives me much material , for we are an odd bunch of heathens at times and that is why I so love my family. We are what we are. Take it or leave it.

Sawyer

Our little Sawyer is going in the hospital, for yet another operation. I am an anxious Grandma who worries about my Soybean in pain. This is a necessary procedure and will help him breath better and hopefully get him eating other variety of foods and other things he struggles with.

This little guy has been through allot, and so has his parents. But he seems to continue his happy smiling attitude. He teaches me at such a young age. I love you my little Sawyer.

It is all about attitude. Whether scrubbing a toilet, whipping a snotty nose, or preparing a lesson or perhaps waking up going to your place of employment.

If only we all could have the attitude of Sawyer. He always finds a smile and a giggle no matter the circumstance. He definitely knows something that we don't. I am going to commit on having a better attitude in life, I have always been a happy sort of person but Sawyer radiates love and happiness and I would love to radiate that same spirit.

We can be miserable or happy, it is our choice. We deserve happiness, we deserve goodness, we deserve success, we deserve the best that life has to offer.

Sleep Study... Sleep Study... Sleep Study...

Here is Soybean at his sleep study. Tarah sent this picture from her phone so technically this is her picture but I just couldn't help myself. Words can not tell you out there in blog land how much this little angel has melted my heart. They left around 9:30 ish and it was so quiet. I don't know how I am going to do it when they buy a home and take my little sweet angel away from me. (I know I sound a little psycho) He brings such a harmonious energy and spirit into this house I can almost imagine what it would be like to be in heaven.

Oh and as for the results of mine??? Still waiting. I wished I would of taken pictures it was so funny I just sat and giggled, I'm sure the Technician didn't see any humor as he was sticking probe like things in my head and arms and legs, on my face and jaws. Stuck a thing in my nose to measure your oxygen output. I looked like a science experiment. I just kept flashing back to Young Frankenstein.

I am sure he wanted to El ca bong me to shut me up from giggling. Then he left and shut out the light and then I heard from the heavens. "Okay Robbin, blink you eyes 5 times". What the heck, I'm thinking. Silence precedes and then once more, "blink your eyes 5 times please". So I look around the room to find the camera while of course blinking. I'm a little creeped out at this point, then I had to do other exercises like; look left, look right, look up, look down, etc. etc. etc.

How can someone sleep knowing that some stranger is watching them? How can someone

sleep knowing you are not in you bed? In your covers? In a smelly old

building with a next door neighbor doing the same thing? With no private bathroom.

I felt like I was in a hostel only I wasn't in Europe, I was in Murray, Utah. Dang! He went over

the buzzer rule of course and I rang it (twice) to go to the bathroom down the hall. I knew I shouldn't have drank that extra water, what the heck was I thinking and that can of Diet Coke.

He was a nice Dude Technician, very patient unhooking me each time I went to the bathroom.

Then I tried the "go to you special place" meditation, except I don't have a special place. Everyone in the world has one but me, so then I tried some other meditation like thinking of a song, but then I couldn't remember the words. I was not sleeping. Hummm! What next? I tried a breathing technique but that just made me dizzy. Oh and to make matters worse I was suppose to sleep on my back which I am a side sleeper. I finally started getting sleepy and I believe I feel asleep. Then promptly I heard him telling my neighbor it was time to get up.

Man they want you out of there as quickly as possibly, so 5:30 we were up and out the door.

So who knows if I even got REM sleep. Oh well I guess we shall know soon.

Been Awhile

Okay so it has been awhile since I have been on here and so I say to you all, so sorry... I will be catching you all up starting with this new year, but for now I will just do a little entry letting you know that tonight I am going at 9:30 to do a sleep study.

Yes, you heard me a lovely sleep study to see if I have sleep apnea and If I do? well I don't know how this will work because I can't handle anything put up to my face.

The dentist would like to knock me out with the hammer just to give me the gas stuff, I have to take anxiety meds just to go to him. With all my C-sections, they realized they had to put me out or sedate me first before I could let them but the oxygen mask on. I would go absolutely wacko if they tried to put it on, I thought I was suffocating so needless to say I am having a teny little tiny panic attack just thinking about it.

Isn't it interesting what you learn about someone.

Okay, I am signing off and I will let you know how it went. Hopefully I can sleep so they will be able to get an accurate study.

bye bye for now.....

peace out!

I am updating.... Sorry, Technical Difficulties

OH MAN I HAVEN'T UPDATED FOREVER

WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN???

Well, I will do a quick run through.

Megan Graduated. Got her braces off. Made Salt Lake Community College Dance Company and got a Liberal Arts Scholarship. We are so proud of you Meggie-Jean

Had a wonderful Fathers Day, we had a BBQ and played some games.

Went to Park City and had fun, but forgot to take the camera.

Kyle had a birthday, it was great. Forgot the camera.

Went to the No Doubt concert and me and my sister Lisa got a little carried away.

ROCK ON!!!

We had to eat at the Olive Garden.

Had a Berry Family Reunion. What is summer without a Family Reunion?